Alizzle and maybe Vdizzle’s Blog

So i just came back from Thousand Pines. I was a Jr. High counselor. IT WAS SUPER awesome!

I am really pumped right now for God, The last three weekends have been High school camp, turn your campus conference, and this weekend was this camp.

I hope i can stay in touch with God like i have been.

So my fave Christian band played at both camps. The Fragrance. They are amazing! [right Laska?] They have such great worship sessions. i want to be able to worship like they do when i am up on stage. It is so hard to connect with God and keep my voice sounding pretty at the same time. [not like you can hear me.] But still.

In other news, i tried out for my fourth and final school play on Monday. It is a musical called Back To The 80′s. I prayed for God to help me out and just to guide me through my audition. The first part was dance. I am the worst dancer on this planet. I did pretty bad. I wasn’t nervous, but it was bad. Then the next part was singing. I was trying out for Featured Female Singer, so its a small part. I practiced the night before with Alaska, and i was singing it how i wanted it to sound. So i get up there and I start coughing. I have had a gnarly cough for about two months now. I lost my head tones after that cough and i knew it. [head tones=high notes or low notes out of your comfort range] Then i got nervous. I bombed my audition and it sounded terrible. In result, i did not get a role in the musical. I also did not get Stage Manager again and it went to a junior. I was pretty discouraged by this. I considered quiting the worship team because i felt i couldn’t sing.

This weekend was in perfect timing for this. I handled it pretty good and i really only had one time where i really had any type of expressed emotion. [okay i cried once because i was having a really bad day!] Anyways, i went to camp and during worship, i was sitting and i was really into the song. Not everyone was singing and i could hear myself. I realized, God gave me my voice for a reason. He wants me to sing and praise him with it. So not getting into this musical was in Gods will. I accept this now. He wants me to spend my time with him instead of at play rehearsals. I am so down for this life God is giving me. 

[Note To Alaska: I get butterflies and my face turns red just thinking of him! Ugh! <3]

peace love vron muwah!